i haven’t felt much like communicating lately. i stay in my head most of the time, because that’s where i feel safest…least likely to be intruded upon by more bad news, new disappointments or the epidemic of strollers filled with six-month-old babies that’s recently broken out. my well-padded list of friends has gotten rather gaunt these last few months, and there aren’t too many people left with whom i have the energy to share even a few of my words.
tomorrow we have our next appointment with the doctor who will decide if we can start ttc again. last time i fell apart in her office when she said no.
this time Froggy is going with me. i am going to try to be calmer.
in a few short hours, i am leaving for England. it’s going to be a slightly convoluted, by very cheap journey, and i will be back in travelling mode for the first time in far too long.
i’ll be staying with two of the loveliest people i know (and believe me, i know some lovely people), and hopefully painting & drawing, playing some guitar, eating good food, wandering around town and spending time in magnificent, easy company. again, it’s been far too long.